Everything you have said resonates with me. I have been drinking a lot lately, and I want to be able to enjoy a drink without having a rager every single night I’m near a drop of alcohol. I have no one to talk to either because my friends at home don’t see what happens when I go out in the town I live in, and they…

I felt a little emotional reading this thread, and the replies. I don’t necessarily blackout when I drink (certainly have but not every night) but I seem to do it to excess, and constantly go through a cycle of get drunk-do stupid things-suffer crippling fear and regret with the onset of a hangover-spiral into…