Mine are 5 and 7 and yeah - it’s almost worse now that I’m further away from my last baby. And it breaks my heart that my younger one doesn’t have a younger sibling. She really wants one. She was supposed to have one. He or she should be 2.5.

No, I’m not on BC. Still hoping maybe I’ll have a kid. :/ They checked my hormones a whole bunch and can’t find anything wrong. Would never tell you to fuck off. You’re good people.

Thanks. This is especially meaningful because I carry a lot of guilt over wanting more than two - both guilt for my kids “not being enough” and for wanting more when others don’t even have one. I’ve also had people tell me that I don’t deserve to be sad. You get all these weird conflicting responses. But the…

Please do. I think I’m making way too much. :P

I managed to handle two miscarriages okay. It was the third one that broke me. I just thought there was no way it would happen again. And there’s no medical explanation. I think I’d feel better if I knew why.

I’ve just been baking.

I can’t really do that. These are lifelong friends who live in town. My brother and sister and their families are flying in and they haven’t seen these friends in over a decade. So it’s a big reunion type thing. I was really excited until I found out about the pregnancy. And I’m still excited. But also periodically…

Tea is the best offer of all. Thank you for that cup.

Yeah, so far years of therapy has not helped. I added meds six months ago which have calmed me over all, but haven’t helped with this problem. I honestly think I’ll just be sad about this shit forever.

Nah, our cold snap is ending. Only -12C right now. It was so brutal for a while there.

Well you make it sound so easy. Wish you could come do it for me. It might be easier if this didn’t come up all the time. I swear I live in the most fertile city in the country.

I seem to just withdraw when people start talking babies. Like my brain can’t even handle it so it just goes elsewhere. I think I’ll just spend extra time in the kitchen.

When it first drops that low, I wear a coat. When it warms up to that, I don’t. Ha.

Adoption is in the future plans for sure. Want my daughter to be further along with mutism issues and any adopted kid would be school age. I just reeeeeallly want another baby. I want to feed a baby again. I’m a fucking weirdo. I miss having a kid hanging off my boob all day.

Finally warmed up to 19F. Didn’t even need a coat. Last night it was down to -24F. It has been like that for two weeks so I’m ready to thaw. We got some fresh snow too. :)

Aaaaah. I’m so messed up. I just found out that my friend’s wife is pregnant with their third and it was like a punch to the stomach. They are coming over for a Christmas get together in a few days and I don’t know how I’m going to handle all the baby talk. It’s been three fucking years since I lost a pregnancy. I’m…

My first boyfriend. I sure got a crash course in both relationships and mental health issues.

You never know. One time I flew first class (on points) and Katie Holmes was in coach. Trying to blend in. It didn’t work.

I remember wearing no-support triangle bikini tops once. That’s a thing that I did.

Now you shouldn’t underestimate the value of good teeth and a nice nose. But I can understand your hesitation. With my first pregnancy I went from B to G. G is big. Kind of a shock to a person used to B. When I got home from the hospital, I couldn’t wear shirts. I had none that fit even a little bit. My husband and…