I had to put my cat to sleep this week. I don’t really know how I’m supposed to move forward from this. I spent the better part of the week writing a eulogy for him, but upon reflection, I’m not sure if that’s even something I should have done. I really just don’t know. I’m pretty much lost right now.

I’d be ok with an adaptation of Viridian City. But instead of a movie, they should make it a TV series. On HBO.

I’m a bit better than I was over the weekend. I haven’t been able to work up to seeking out assistance, but I’ve thrown myself wholly into some hobbies to distract myself/enjoy something.

I have. I’ve actually been slowly saving money for it fo a while. I get why you have to pay up front for it, but it’s a difficult proposition when you’re someone who needs it.

Back in the ‘90s, I saw a couple guys playing Risk on a subway.

It really made me dislike people.

I genuinely appreciate the outpouring of support.

Even if I could survive the medical issues, I’m not sure how long I can bear the psychological scars. As well, I would have to either literally or figuratively win the lottery to get out from under my debt. I’m not even thirty, and if the best case scenario is another half century of struggling, then I don’t want it.…

No, I’m in a really rural area.

I’ll look into that. Thanks.

That’s pretty much out of the question right now. I only take home about $600 a month, so anything would be too expensive.

Thank you for this. There are some similarities between our respective situations, and it’s a comfort to hear.

While I do appreciate the sentiment, I don’t have the type of problems that can be solved by having someone “talking me down from the ledge” so to speak. I need real, practical solutions, the likes of which are difficult or impossible to achieve by the time I’ll have died from medical issues. At this point, this is…

I’m not opposed to assistance. But, as whiny as this might sound, I just don’t have the energy to keep going through all of that. I have difficulty using phones, and of course, phones are integral to making any headway with anything. It took me months of effort working on getting coverage through the ACA, and even…

You’re pretty much spot on in your assessment.

Honestly, I don’t know at this point. The psychological damage I’ve accrued in the last few years is every bit as bad as the physical, and would be even harder to treat. I had to quit the job I had at the time, partly because I couldn’t physically handle handle it, and partly due to harassment from the owner’s son (my…

I’m not a member over there, though I have visited on occasion. It’s a good group of people. I’d be ok with you sharing this.

I’m out of options. I’ve got health issues that prevent me from working more than a few hours a day, even at a desk job. Because I have no money coming in, I can’t afford treatment. Without treatment, my issues get worse, leading into a feedback loop. The only chance I have of surviving is if we get some sort of…

I’m about ready to give up. At this point, I really don’t have anything left to live for. I’m going to start gun shopping tomorrow.

That’s awesome! Keep it up!