Thanks. I don't think I will have a problem doing or saying anything mean or crazy. I'm generally good at keeping things to myself. You're right, I should take stock in what I have and how lucky I am to be in relatively good health and have a stable job.

I'm so sorry to hear this. Unemployment sucks, especially when it is unexpected.

Congrats!

That's been in development for awhile. I hope it gets off the ground finally. Between that and Hulu doing A Handmaid's Tale and Alias:Grace, it will be quite a time for Atwood fans.

Man, I still keep a case of PBR around just in case.

This week is West Virginia Craft Beer week and the Mountaneer Brewfest is this weekend. I, sadly, will not be able to go because I was dumb and booked my band a gig out of town. BUT, tonight Big Timber Brewing from Elkins, WV is doing a tap takeover at a local bar where they will showcase their own beer and some other…

Wow. Last year my local grocery store ordered too much Pumking and couldn't sell it. They were selling it all the way into April and it was discounted down to a dollar a bottle.

-The 80s themed fundraiser went off without a hitch despite some fighting and was tons of fun. Probably the most fun I had all summer.
-A friend and his girlfriend were able to reconcile and not break up. Also, he started seeing a therapist after I told him I had been seeing one for awhile.

I'm really enjoying Last Sext and really just her poetry in general. She had a poem in Scarecrone that I really liked, so I might pick up that one as well. Also, I really enjoyed So Sad Today, except for that essay about her barf fetish.

I've been listening to Sufjan Stevens a lot lately. I was a big fan of his in college, but lost interest around Age of Adz. Carrie and Lowell came out when my mom started getting sick and that album was like a comfort for me. I don't know why, but I put Seven Swans on the other day and now I'm just running through his…

I'm really digging that song and can't wait for that album. I got to hang out with her a few years ago. A friend and his brother were in the same music scene as her and they know her well. This was before her last album came out, so I wasn't really familiar. It was a good time though and she's super cool. I'm seeing…

Now that I am finally finished learning drum parts to a ton of 80s songs, I'm going to be focusing on my own band. My Dropbox is full of songs the other members have written that I now have to add drum parts too. I'm hoping to find a decently priced sequencer to do something a little different.

Since I'm not well versed in it other than E.E. Cummings, I decided to start reading some poetry. Right now I have a collection of Gwendolyn Brooks poems and Last Sext by Melissa Broder. My friend who is a published poet and teaches poetry and literature at a university also gave me a stack of stuff, but I haven't…

Thanks man. I think that is what worries me the most. I don't want these feelings to turn ugly and make me resentful causing me to lash out at friends. I've been good so far though, so that's a plus.

This is the first time I've had this kind of talk with a partner. But that honestly and openness is great and very comforting. It relieves a lot of tension and allows both of you to focus on pleasing one another. And man, I think it was some of the best sex I have ever had in my life.

Thanks. When I was unemployed and living with my parents I felt generally the same way. I wasn't good enough for anyone and that no one could possibly be attracted to me. I still have some residual issues from that and other things from my twenties. My therapist thinks that I tend to carry a lot of shame from my past…

That was pretty much it. What they were saying was basically "isn't it lame how they are doing stuff." They are in their mid-20s, but that does not excuse them in any way.

Restrains self from declaration on being "the king of this shit"*

I said the same thing about giving up last night to a friend. I've had an engagment end, been cheated on twice since then, forced myself to be in relationships with people I only slightly liked, and when I finally met a person I fell in love with and pictured spending my life with, it ended suddenly and out of…

I would definitely let him know all of this. If he is interested too then he should be understanding and willing to do something when you get less busy.