Thank you for the heads up. I'll have my documents handy, but will probably by a return ticket to be on the safe side. Most likely somewhere around the 8week mark. Still planing, but all advice is welcome.

Oh and because I’m a strange lady, I wanted to post my NYE outfit. I haven’t felt that great about my appearance(depression moved in) in quite a while, but that night I felt good. It was sparkly and twirly and I was happy. This new lease on life has really taken hold.

Crying walls would solve that pesky problem of having to clean them, after someone drops something on the floor and it splashes on to the wall. It may be because I don’t have cats, but I thought the mewling might be adorable. I’m guessing it’s not for many reasons.

I alternate between Chloe, Marc Jacobs Daisy and....Addias for Women. The last one is incredibly cheap and smells like clean sheets, white button-ups and cold air. I have no clue what I mean when I say that, I just know I love it.

I loved this game, till I got a jerky player in Utah, who sent me mean messages. Oh and I hated waited on people, who started then stopped for a while, only to return several hours later. It was fun while it lasted though

Homemade chicken parm sandwich with a big bowl of ice cream(rocky road). I’ve just lazed about today, planning trip stuff and taking all the naps. I feel good.

Well you can cry and we you do, we can have a crying party. I must warn you, my nose runs like a faucet and I end up drowning in tissue, but I always bring the ice cream. :)

While I’m not entirely sure this is the place to post this, it’s the only idea I’ve got.

Music helped me escape my terrible childhood as well. At the time, my taste in music was considered pretty mature for someone my age. I still remember singing “Don’t Take the Girl” off my back porch, to calm me down when my mom and sister would fight.

I got into country music by accident, but stayed because I fell in love with the voices. Oooh and the big hair. Can’t forget the hair.

What about?

I was so happy to see that Cosby is charged. My first thought after seeing him in his ‘Woe is me’ costume was- “Who does he think he’s foolin’?”

Thank for this and all of the hugs.

I read your comment yesterday and it hit me so hard, that I had to step away for a while before I could respond. I’m still not sure what to say, but I want to try.

Thank you!

Thank you!

Thank you for sharing your experience and advice on boundaries and codependency. It’s helpful hearing that someone else removed themself from a toxic family situation and they are better for it. It’s not going to be easy, but it will be worth it.

Ive been suicidal and depressed for so long, that i gave up on believing things would improve and tried to convince myself that its just who I am now. But I'm not this person and the only way I can get to a better place emotionally, is to leave. If I don't, it will only get worse and that's scarier than anything.

Haven't left yet and I'm still tinkering with plans, but I'm very open to suggestions. I've never been to a spa before. Thought about it, but never seemed like a possibility with taking care of the family. Now just about anything is possible. I'm like a kid in a candy store. :)

Cutting ties will be hard, but it’s necessary. I cannot change them, nor should I have to.