but they took that show off netflix and i’m almost as mad about it as when they took off all the old law&order:rape episodes

the drunken canadian closeted loves chad

closeted gay for him?

olivia strong-arming ben into keeping her around and having basically no idea he wasn’t just 100% with her was justttt amazing tv

it was SO AMAZING to see them all being like, did you talk to her what did you talk about did you just straight up say ‘sup’ did she talk to you did you see her dress then go and change your tie while she waited

duuuude. yes.

ya know, CULTURE

true dat - its funny, people from the inside sometimes like to ask/allude to the idea that i’d be so much happier if i were still in the church, and it’s like, well i mean yeah of course. certainly i’d be happier if i hadn’t had my entire life turned upside-down when i realized it was all just bullshit, and had to try…

everyone is telling me she didn’t leave, i think i was projecting

everyone is telling me that she’s still pretty obviously active, i think the info just appeared in my mind out of sheer will, because it was a no-brainer for me to leave after something far less terrible than her hellish experience happened to me, and i just assumed that she must have been the same. i mean, i know…

lol just realized this post was like two months ago... guess you know what i was watching while i was hustlin tonight

oh god i guess i don’t actually know! i assumed, but i’m not sure.

its weird how i was reading this as i was watching being like, ok chad is hot and pretty smooth and doesn’t seem too bad, he’s definitely arrogant and giving the producers a TON of interview which does not say the best things about him, but he doesn’t seem too— (cue the ‘upcoming episodes’ clips) O OHH WHOAAAA ok…

oh my stars this is the like one thing about being sheltered that i am legitimately thankful for - that i didn’t learn how to party by sneaking booze and huffing paint with teenagers, but rather by sipping fancy wine and sampling different... stuff with adults

i’m sure that she has like a dozen dudes she wants to ask to stay/remembers, and of the rest, the few she wants to send home and the bunch that made no impression whatsoever they ‘help’ her make the decision by making sure she keeps the hilarious drama guys

i also really respect - as a fellow ex-mormon - that she doesn’t shy away from saying that the church fucked her up. i like that she calls out specific behaviors and dialogues and people who told her the wrong things. i’m impressed she does it with as much gentleness and dignity as she does.

the chopin he was playing in his interview vid was a much better choice - if we hadn’t seen him play that already i woulda been skeptical that he actually knew how to play

and that TIE

i can’t believe they didn’t let her send like 15 of them home