BlueAlaskan
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BlueAlaskan
Jun 10 2016
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I pop in to lurk, but mostly keeping myself busy in the real world. I’m doing alright, though that divorce seems to be coming down the line. Read more

Dec 4 2015
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My first thought on seeing the colors was, “Oh god, the Sephora eyeshadows are going to be awful!” Read more

Dec 4 2015
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Chocolate Covered Katie is a vegan blog, but she does a bunch of healthy/vegan versions of some super tasty foods! Maybe you could find a recipe to try or at least some inspiration?

Dec 3 2015
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For sure give it a wash/block first. The shape and drape of it can change drastically if it hasn’t been! Read more

Dec 1 2015
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My dad has a ton of religious guilt about the “broken home” thing. I’ve told him that I grew up with two parents who I knew loved and supported me and I never questioned that and that was way more important. He and my step mom communicate by yelling at each other most of the time and my two younger half-brothers are Read more

Dec 1 2015
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Oh yeah, I do smoke too, just didn’t put that in the main body. :)

Dec 1 2015
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This will probably sound a lot like trying to justify myself, but here goes. We had the plans for AK before he got let go, the part about the wedding is that it was a family event at a church. Even when we were still living there and everything was as good as it has ever been, he would occasionally commit to a family Read more

Nov 30 2015
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I think there’ll have to be some deep digging for change if it’s going to happen. Every now and then there are a few specific things that I remember that end up fitting into a pattern that makes me not feel hopeful about how things will turn out. I just remembered once when our first child was pretty young, Mr.BT Read more

Nov 30 2015
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I think the new job has decent insurance, but we don’t have it yet. We were able to afford the copay for his visits when he was going, so if it’s comparable, I could probably go.

Nov 30 2015
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Thanks. I find that I respect and agree with your writing a lot. I think you’re right, I am super focused on him right now. I think it’s just in super sharp focus right now because I’ve been laid up in bed with my back and not able to do anything for myself. I have some goals, I think I’ll make a list and take those Read more

Nov 30 2015
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Good to know. There are plenty of private schools, but they’re also pretty spendy. I feel like that first step of just contacting the other school is a start. I am willing to keep my options open.

Nov 30 2015
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The easiest thing would be to go back to Alaska. My family is there, my old job would be available to me, I know the schools, divorce laws make that easier. After getting out though, I dread going back. Every time we go back to visit, I’m overshadowed by physical discomfort. I don’t know anyone here close enough to be Read more

Nov 30 2015
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Depression is definitely a factor. The thing is, it has been for a while. He did see someone for a while, but then just stopped going. Even then it was only because I did the leg work after he admitted there was a problem. I think I’ve been supportive (not lately, but in the past). The thing is, he has to want to get Read more

Nov 30 2015
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I am a little bit glad his laziness means that he never went in to the bank to put his signature on our savings account, so I’m the only one with access. It’s barely anything, but it would get me into my own place if I needed it. Read more

Nov 30 2015
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Having him not working and not doing anything around the house has amplified the bad stuff. It made me realize that even when I was working, I was still doing pretty much everything around the house and with the kids. He is still the same guy he was when we got together, but that doesn’t really work when it means he Read more

Nov 30 2015
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I know of one non-religious private school in my area. I read your comment, contacted them through their website, and came back to say thank you. It’s a start and I need to start somewhere.