Hey, don’t beat yourself up or look up “agnostic” and try to memorize it. Accept quantum physics when it comes to God, something can exist and not exist at the same time. No rational God, cool, “God help me” moment, cool too. Learn to accept the conundrum, tell people you take the quantum approach and get cool with…

What you are describing is in fact, what life is meant to be, fulfillment of a creative process, using mind and body, so that true exhaustion at the end of the day yields renovating, regenerative sleep. All the best to you.

I’m not sure if I can agree with any of the recommendations, I appreciate them. I think my problem is like the problem a closeted gay person has, dealing with a feeling that you can not be yourself and let the chips fall where they will. This may be affecting my ability to effectively communicate and is making…