Bit early to say really. Could be Jet lag. :)

Even that you think you deserved it does not make it okay. I suspect that many abused women also think they deserve it. Simply put, excusing violence is not helpful.

No. It is a thoughtless reaction which could have easily been verbalized as a simple “No” (etc) - violence - physical, emotional, verbal..all are forms of abuse and not honestly justifiable.

Physical, mental, verbal violence is not justifiable.