Update: Went to the club, drank one whisky, celebrated friends birthday, met some great new people. Cute guy was there. We had a drink and talked. Casual, nice, comfortable. Gave him a hug goodbye. Lunch date coming up. This is HUGE progress for me!

Greatest thing I have ever learned in the toughest situation I have ever been in is that anyone who is toxic does not belong in my life, regardless of their relationship to me. Seriously, detox those shitty ass people in life, and get a dog or a cat if you need a replacement for them.