I have never (except maybe when i was 5) "heard" what I was reading in my head, and until reading this article, it never occurred to me that anyone did this. I read far faster than I could ever talk (or even silently "hear" words — if I try to read that way, it's twice as slow), and my comprehension is just fine. …

I agree with you on most of these points — if I have to follow the words with my hand when reading, it would take all the pleasure out, for one thing. And doubling back increases comprehension. (Though the first thing they mention, saying words out loud in your head — who does that? i read faster than i could ever…

That's crazy, because I've never "heard" the words in my head while reading. I didn't know anyone did that! (Other than 5 year olds learning to sound out words, that is.) No wonder I always read so much faster than other people, when I'm reading a web site with someone, or whatever.

he's so hot! also 1. i always like the underdog 2. i like tortured souls 3. i like guys with dark curly hair and intense eyes... in fact my boyfriend looks a lot like jon snow in that sense. 4. so hot!!

i actually just bought some running shoes! i used to bike everywhere but i got a car last year and so my exercise has reduced drastically. and you have to bike a lot more to get the same amount of exercise you'd get running a shorter distance, especially because i have a super light aluminum frame bike. so yeah,…

i agree. forgiving some of the people who (directly or indirectly) influenced my addiction is one of my biggest problems. and forgiving myself for being a fuckup is even harder. i was one of those child prodigies who everyone thought was going to do something so great but the pressure from my parents and my intense…

portland is the heroin capital of the west coast. way worse than seattle OR san francisco — both of which i've done a lot of heroin in, but neither of which even approaches portland in how easy it is to find and how strong it is. in 1999 two hopeless junkies hung themselves on the steel bridge during rush hour. …

thank you! anything that's helped you in particular? especially anything spiritual? do you do meetings? i've gotten clean so many times and tried so many different things to help me stay clean, none of which worked ultimately, i feel like i'm running out of things to try, short of suicide. i stay alive because i…

yes i've tried meditation. well mostly within a yoga setting, where we'd do 20 min of meditation within a 90 minutes class, or whatever. at one time i was training to be a yoga teacher but i can't stand how it's basically become a marker of wealth for suburban bottle blonds (at least it was in chicago). that was…

LOL!!!! i have suboxone. a lot of it. i need at least 16 mg a day to even defeat half of the withdrawal. my heroin habit was 300 dollars a day lately and has been for years. after 3 days or so i cut down to 8 mg and after that i try to taper to 2 mg within a few months. but at the beginning i need mountains of…

i kind of agree, but most of the things on that list are things that are integrel to me staying clean. for example, i stayed clean for 6 months last year, but i was just sitting around my apt doing nothing and the boredom eventually made me relapse. i realize now that i need to get back into school faster, i need to…

really? my best friend uses the name "forsythia" on the internet. perhaps you aren't her. strange, though.

yes! portland is bad for my addiction and i'm finally getting sick of it after 13 years of living there on and off (visiting the fam in chicago right now) so my bf and i are planning on moving to SF in about a year once/if i finally finish my journalism degree at UO. i love the west coast.

yes i need to do that. i'm also in therapy (DBT therapy for having borderline personality disorder) and my therapist tries to scale down my typically grandiose, overwrought ideas and overly perfectionist and harsh way of doing everything. also, creating little rewards for everything. the last time i got clean i let…

yay — not being able to OD? being bored? not getting knifed yet? lol. seriously when i was living in chicago last year i had a lot of close calls scoring on the west side, homeless junkies trying to slash me with broken bottles to get the bags i'd just scored, and i'd have to run off or try to jump on a bus or…

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thanks. yes meetings help me a lot, as much as i resisted them at first. i know, every addict tries to quit a million times until finally it works.. like when the thing you've lost is in the last place you looked, you never know if this time will be hopeless or if it will finally be the last time. if i knew how to…

thanks d! coming back to portland on wednesday late at night so i'll be back into the land of temptation, but i'm hoping for a new years miracle or something. haha. i wrote you on facebook, did you get it? actually i had a chance to score here in chicago, and managed not to, so that's good.

i'm not going to post my addy here but if you give me an email address or something i will. i have a stalker and he's probably reading everything i write here, and i just moved and i'm so glad he doesn't know where i live anymore. lol.

that's cool. yeah without needles it's much easier. i shamefully taught my amazing and perfect boyfriend how to shoot up almost 3 years ago and his addiction multiplied tenfold since then (he had been smoking it before)... he used to be able to stop much more easily. he's still not as bad as i am though, it's…