Troll much lately?

You've expressed how I feel perfectly. I love my husband, I would love our kids. But I love my life as is, we don't have any family members that would be able to help and I'm just not parent material. Normally I'm 100% certain in this, but I just found out two of his cousins are having babies and it makes me a little…

They once referred to him as our new "hobby."

I would live and die for all three of my children. Each one is precious in my eyes. I also wish I did not become a Dad. I'm not nearly as good at it as I had hoped. I feel like there is no refuge or sanctuary when things get really difficult. The peaceful moments either never happen or are far too short and few. …

I'd rather take the off-change that I'll regret not having them down the road ...than regret ever having them and be in an irreparable situation.

Well, the other thing no one says is that just because you regret not having children doesn't mean you should have had children. I am ambivalent about having children and people who (for some reason) want me to have them always threaten me with "regret." I'm always asked, "What if you regret not having them?" The…