Oh, well he did tell me not to worry about the rent/bills he does know it is a lot of money and he even said once I'm on my feet and we're there he feels it could be weighed with him paying more like 60-70% but that makes me uncomfortable and I'd rather pay half and not have it be uneven. And my name isn't on…

Oh my gosh! That jerk! Grrrrr. Well I'm glad you are happy and successful now! And thank you for reading my dramatic saga of woe. Jezebel is like my cool aunt, I've been reading it since I was 17 and everyone has really good advice and solidarity when it comes to serious questions/life issues.

Thanks for all your advice! Yeah I feel dumb a lot, but I know I'm not stupid or anything, I just am hard on myself for not accomplishing more you know "voted most likely to succeed" and all that, and I am terrible at math- I am math dumb. And I know that I'm in a phase almost everyone goes through in their 20's.

Thank you for reading through all that! Yeah, even like if we're not near any other people or it's dark and no one can see. The other week we were in the ocean and I swam up behind him to hold onto his shoulders so I could get pulled around for a bit and he wouldn't let me. We were about 30 feet away from other people…

Thank you for reading and for the academic perspective! Yeah, he is very smart and analytical so that's one of the main reasons I am having a hard time. And thank you for including the bit about even reserved people mentioning their partner's, because I wasn't sure if it was a normal/abnormal thing. And, as I…

No I appreciate people even reading through this mess! Thank you for the advice.

Ha that's what my grandma told me! She was like; "He's going to leave you for another scientist the second he finishes his PhD. " Love the gif.

Lol you're very sweet and thanks for replying. I'm pretty sure proposal thing won't happen because I am 23 and he's only a little bit older and we're not really at that point yet and both are relatively broke.

Thank you so much for taking all the time to read my rambles! I'm sure I sound super crazy right now, it is just sort of all tumbling out, but it is very therapeutic.

Thank you for the reply! That is part of why I'm afraid to bring it up, I think I would freak out if on him if he said you are my family and friend or something like that. I didn't even need him to say some mushy I love my girlfriend thing, just "thank you oreos" or even "loved ones" which he could have argued…

Oh it is his best bro, he said his name. I just didn't want to include too much identifying info.

Thank you for the reply! I'm so dumb I meant masters thesis! I always switch masters thesis and dissertation. Well he appreciates me in general, but I guess he hasn't really specifically acknowledged how much I've sacrificed for this whole grad student thing. And I know part of it is that it's not fair to turn…

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my ramblings and reply. Yeah I feel that "little" things like that are indicative of bigger things too, I just needed some non-currently freaking out people to tell me whether I was being logical or not. There are obviously a few other issues at play. And he just got a job…

Thank you so much for replying. Yeah the biggest thing was that he asked me to proofread it! I was like " I just proofread the "thank you for helping me section" of a paper I helped on the whole way through and got not one little shoutout?!" That was the most hurtful, I wish he didn't ask me to look it over if he…

After 2 1/2 years, of being very poor together, of staying up late and helping him study, of reviewing his papers, of providing my grad-student meltdown counseling services, of dropping him off at school, picking up the housework and cooking when he was in crunch-time zones, of staying up and asking him questions and…

So I know this isn't an open post but I am having a Jezzie SOS moment. I am having a rare moment of hurt feelings and I am usually too cool for school about this kind of stuff. I need to know if I am being dramatic/reading too much into this, and truly, not in a "secretly seeking validation" kind of way but in a,…