Well, the thing is, you aren’t alone. In this particular pain, you have a shared experience with countless others (myself included).

Abusing underage boys makes one a pedophile, not homosexual. They’re distinct sexualities. Look it up.

“The closeted perv has never come out as gay”

Because he very well may not be; being a child predator /= gay. Abusive sex is about power, not identity.