You get paid $1 to my 77¢ you’re footing the bill, buddy.

Unasked for “Advice from Random Internet Stranger”. Please look into a way to eliminate/lessen the anxiety. And try to figure out why you don’t do it very often. Not for additional pressure, and not in any way suggesting that you “need” to do it more often but it sounds like maybe you aren’t having your needs met and…