I walked off the field too walked away from scouts I lost my mind in 2013

I lost my mind in 2013 I was a senior in highschool. I had offers from everywhere you can think. Now in 2016 I'm no where near the same person I was then. My mind, mood, the way I talk think is different. This is extremely hard. Doing something you love your whole life, just to find out you'll lose your mind in the…