Oh my god. That’s pretty intense. I’m going to have to check with my nurse to see if my dog will be safe around me. I live alone, so the contact with anyone else won’t be a problem, but I was planning to take my laptop in to the isolation room to keep me entertained (I was told I’d be in an isolation room for 5 or…

Thank you. <3 I’m reminded of that poem that keeps being attributed to Frida Kahlo that apparently isn’t actually by her that starts “leaving is not good enough, you must stay gone. You must train your heart like a dog” (probably not verbatim, I’m on my phone so searching is tricky). It’s a rallying call of…

Fuuuuuuuuuuuck. Your mama is a tough cookie, well done to her for the quick wits!

I have night terrors and sleep paralysis too. Several, some dark, evil force is capturing me and forcing me places. The worst case of that happening, my arms were pinned to my sides, lips and eyes sealed shut whilst I screamed. I was screaming because I was being pushed off my bed and being pulled under it, which I…

Christ, I was almost wondering if he turned out to be the “one man, one ice pick” guy.

Oh christ that is bang on the money.

Wayhey!! If I could run I’d totally abscond whilst in my hospital gown and still radioactive just to get a trail of hospital orderlies trying to catch me in a Benny Hill type Yakety Sax moment. I feel my disabilities are robbing me of my one type to be a radioactive public menace.

Does this mean it’s time to become a trash panda rather than a honey badger? I’ve been channelling the honey badger for a while, maybe a trash panda will be a welcome change!!

I probably need to tattoo that on the back of my hand!!!! I hope I can peel away years of having guilt laid on me and can force distance without feeling like a Shit Person™, I know it won’t be easy, but I really don’t need to have their crap foisted on me on top of what’s already emotionally taxing.

That’s a good perspective, thinking for “someone else” often feels less indulgent than thinking “what do *I* want”!

Well it’s hopeful that a break was finally made, it means it’s possible! When I start listing the things they’ve said and done, it would look to anyone who didn’t live it as probable bullshit, but I guess that it’s part of what helps them get away with it, the ridiculousness helps buy silence and supports the…

*hugs back* thank you, oh bulldozer driver of sweet justice! So far, they’ve not chased any information, so I’m happy to leave it hanging in midair over them. It’s a passive aggressive win/win as far as I can tell!

My mum lives for pseudoscience magazines and blogs, so basically is of the same mindset of an antivaxxer. She only acknowledges my illnesses if it can be used to put me down or invalidate my opinion (apparently my “stop being racist” is invalid because of the depression she claims I don’t really have), so, yeah...

Ah, yup, it’s a shared language of the children of NPD parents.

I’m Jewish by birth, but not by raising, but I’m pretty certain that level of perfect silent message can only come off a fellow tribe member, my Gran used to do this wonderful “let them connect the dots” thing that sounds *so* similar!!!

Thank you! I’m sure I’m going to be fine, I have good friends and an awesome dog, these are the most important things in life!

Yay kitteh!

Thank you! My mum spends hours pouring over pseudoscience health magazines and blogs, so thinks she knows more than doctors do.

<3 thank you! I shall channel the energy into hardcore arse kicking! :D

Talk about going to extremes!!! My main thing with the radioisotope treatment is that the literature is trying so hard to cover all exceptions to the rule that it doesn’t tell you what to expect properly (like, am I going to feel like shit? I don’t know!), and is so condescending that two whole pages of text has no…