It sounds to me like she does want to talk about it, but wants the people she’s talking with to acknowledge her reality and have the conversation she’s actually trying to have, rather than insisting that she’s wrong and she won’t be alone forever, even though, as she points out, there is no guarantee of that.

Over 60 years old here… relationships have come and gone, but at least I can say I’ve escaped the legal and financial consequences of marriage.

I confess I didn’t. I was too horrified about the defacing of the table in the library. I suck at “awareness,” I guess.