Nobody wants to see someone kill themselves. It seems so senseless and to many it's selfish. Many people don't realize that it's more painful to live and to have to relive your past in your mind day after day or know that you will never be what you envision yourself as. Having to eal with these things day in and day…

I shed a gallon of tears already today. I might as well use up the rest of them.

I thank you and I thank everyone who took the time to read my post. I appreciate everyones support I really do. My tears are flowing from reading peoples caring replies.

I will start by saying I made a new account to post with because I do not want to post on my real account and out myself.