Thank you all. I suppose I knew deep down I'd been "friendzoned" (god I hate that word but it fits for now), but I really do like this guy, so I didn't, and I still don't really, want to believe it. He pretty much hits all the right notes on what I like in potential relationships, and he's so good looking (I swear to…

Can I get a glass too after reading all this?

So, I ended up being honest and asked the guy I was crushing on exactly how he felt about me, and told him I expected rejection, but I needed an answer. I did it mostly because my own not knowing for sure was hurting, but now I think I'm not much better off then I was before.

While Miley might be sliding deeper into crazy, I just want to say I love that top from what I can see of it. It's like a weird buttoned corset and I just adore it.

As I was watching Daily Show last night, all I could think as I died laughing was "I really hope someone makes some gifs out of this madness with dildos".

Nope, been playing games since I was 5. In fact, I'm currently taking a break from Guild Wars 2 because I started to go hoarse from screaming obscenities everytime I died in the new hunger games minigame.

Can I just say I'm disappointing that that link doesn't actually go anywhere? Because I was hoping for entertainment with a name like that.

.. Oh god. It looks like the original Digimon World.

MMO: Massively Multiplayer Online. Usually has something like RPG, FPS, etc attacted to it. It's an online game. Ventrilo is a VOIP program like Skype, but it's more like a vocal chat room without video, usually used for online game players to interact and coordinate with each other without having to type stuff.

It's hard for us to actually hang out in meatspace. We both work retail (although he is a DM at a different store then the one I work at), so our days off don't match up much. Plus, he has a kid, and only gets to see her on his days off, and I would never think of trying to take that from someone.

Well, part of it could be that in the past, we tried to do something... but it kind of fell on it's head. The last we ever really talked about it at lenght was over a month ago, and he basically said we just needed time to build and that he wasn't really ready for a relationship. I thought, hey, maybe I'd ask, see…

So, I need either some validation or to be talked out of something, depending on how stupid what I'm about to say sounds.

The more I find out about this mmo, the more I get excited for it.

That was fantastic. Completely scripted, but still glorious.

Confession: I've never actually used any kind of toy. I already find it such a hassle to get off because of how uncooperative my body can be, and these can be so expensive and varied that I've never been able to talk myself into actually purchasing anything.

Also, I've calmed down somewhat. The ranting always helps, oh yes. Plus, I have decided that I am going to pretty myself up by wearing a dress out in public, actually wearing some make-up, and going to the coffee shop in my local mall to get one of their bitchin' vanilla chai teas, and fuck anyone who comments at me…

So, I'm about ready to kill the ex of my friend/guy I've been trying to get with. He has a daughter with the ex, and this is one of the few kids that I actually like to be around and play with. For a two year old, she's pretty awesome.

In a very rural area so unless you trust your gps to find your way out here... even then it's a blink and you miss it kind of place.

And not a single soul was shocked at this outcome.

Of course, I fully expect at least one person to come through my checkout line tomorrow with nothing but Hostess products in their arms and the joy of the gods upon their face.