I made pemmican this week. I dehydrated the meat earlier, and rendered the fat over last weekend (ten hours in the oven, but the butcher’s shop gave me 2lbs of suet for free). Then this week I ground the meat. Bought a really nice mortar and pestle from Ikea and went at it manually. After three bouts of grinding (I…

I don’t actually talk to them like this. But you’re right, I’m not helpful. I can’t help people who are passive aggressive to me. They need to go somewhere else.

I didn’t say it was good advice, or any advice. It’s how I feel when I’m angry and frustrated because people won’t talk about it, or are passive aggressive about it. If they’re trying to make me angry for whatever reason, it’s working. I do think people should find something else to say rather than “I’m going to kill…

I don’t take it lightly, which is why I got so stressed out about the one person posting about it online when there was nothing we could do about it. And then deleting the posts as if it didn’t happen. Repeatedly. It was a horrible roller coaster. And then my passive aggressive friend who kept telling me about suicide…

I don’t think anyone other than our father slept in an area where he could get at. Maybe he snuck pats from him. :)

This week I discovered that if you look at one of the fountains in the water park at the right angle when the sun is on it, you can see a rainbow. Then they turned the water off for the winter (again - it was off briefly a few weeks ago), so now I have to wait for the spring for more rainbows, but I got to see a few…

Our dog used to put his head under our hands and move it up so that we would “pet” him, but he did it when we were awake and it was a pretty obvious bid for attention.

I’ve been reading Kinsey lately (1948/1953). At that time it was still considered a sin to do anything sexual that couldn’t lead to pregnancy. That included masturbation and oral sex. Women don’t have any say about losing eggs (especially nuns, I guess), but wasting sperm is a choice and therefore evil!

That’s just me feeling awkward.

I guess at my age it’s harder to engage on one side or the other. I have found it stressful in the past with two people - the blogger I mentioned, and a passive aggressive online friend I ended up dropping. Maybe learning how to deal with this sort of thing is just part of life.

There isn’t much research and results are mixed. It did not solve most of my problems, but did let me clear out some baggage. So who knows? They don’t normally hurt, at least.

There was a blogger on the Autism Hub a few years ago who kept blogging that he was going to kill himself, then would blog that he had tried but someone had intervened or he didn’t succeed, then would delete the posts. I think he tried to kill himself around five times in one year. By the end I wished he would just do…

Can you download some binaural beats off the internet (e.g. sbagen, if you can figure out how to use it, or free samples)? They’re relaxing and can clear some of the cobwebs out of your brain if it’s overtasked. Only use if you can hear out of both ears (need headphones or earbuds) and if you don’t get seizures!

Would a film have handled dyslexia as well ten years earlier? I was struck by how well the subject was handled in this film.

And “Taylor and Zac: It’s On!” from today’s issue.

I’m honestly surprised they’ve lasted this long.

Lots of speculating about who the predator is here, which is understandable. And it’s important to go after predators. But I think it’s also important to stop offering them so many easy victims, too. And it would be nice if people would talk about prevention whenever this subject comes up.

I’m sure there are patterns out there somewhere. :googles: There are!

I bought a three-step stepladder recently (because I am short) and scrubbed the mold off the top of the walls in the bathroom this morning. The stepladder now makes a nice shelving unit.

I really feel for you. I felt like a failure because I wasn’t even able to get into a PhD program in my 20s, and periodically reconsider trying again in order to get my union card (I do research on my own, since I’m unemployable and on disability). Failing the candidacy exam would be incredibly stressful if I did get…