It will be OK - seriously, it will be OK. I only have one (18 now), but a huband who became disabled suddenly when he was 15), but do not beat yourself up. You love your children. They know that. Give yourself a breatk. The next few years will be hard, but there will be joys along the way. And 10 years from now…

Mine piled up until my workplace forced me to take some, and I just sat around because my husband wasn’t taking any vacation days and I had nothing to do.

I gave birth last Saturday, when I was only 25 weeks along, because my high blood pressure turned into preeclampsia and then HELLP syndrome in a matter of days. Original plan was to keep me at the hospital for as many weeks as possible before delivery, but my labs turned bad and then worse and doctors think I would…