Please don’t kill yourself. The national suicide hotline number is 1-800-273-8255, if you need to talk this over with someone. But please don’t kill yourself. You matter, not just to your mom. I promise.

Thank you for bravery and honesty in sharing this. I have an abusive father (whom I struggle with labelling as such) and I identified a lot with a lot of this, especially the fear and anger that comes with trying to parse the thought that this is who you are. You pretty much summed it up: “But what pains me most is…