I still can't sleep. The pain is driving me nuts.

Rubba lubba dub dub?

I don't remember how much I said on twitter when I got back negative mammogram results, but, um, I really was scared about the cancer. Two cents. In life or death scenarios, I think normal rules can go out the window.

Of course! Post away!

I found out some disturbing info about my friend on Monday, so this whole week has been horrible. I can't sleep at night, I have to force myself to eat, and I don't want to wake up and feel the pain in the morning, so I go back to sleep over and over.

My friends from Team Community started a donation page to American Foundation for Suicide Prevention on their own: http://afsp.donordrive.com/…

1) So I played "Till There Was You" at my friend's graveside yesterday, in a beautiful Jewish cemetery. He had a steel grey coffin. I stood with his friends: his high school buddy and his wife, and also his ex-wife. There was a nice eulogy.
Later, I was going to go up to his mother to say some condolences, but I…

1) Some of them. But I think it's bad wiring or bad raising. And God cleans them up afterwards, either with surgical hellfire and reincarnation, or puppies. In heaven.
2) Love and being kind
3) Yes
4) Either you want to be good or you don't. Some people are raised in a money motivated household. Some are raised in a…

I LOVE YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Here's my baby. I'm playing "Till There Was You" on my blue violin at the gravesite in the morning, if I can hold it together.

Wilder and Mostel, DUH DOY :P

I'm gonna watch Eddie Izzard's "Force Majeure" then The Producers.

I tried to put as much twitter coverage as possible here: https://storify.com/violinc…

Awwww omg <3 <3 I love you Birdie

I just miss Eric so much. I wish I had another chance. Even one more minute. The heartbreak is unbearable. He was a good man.

Today is hard. I angrily think, since I'm suffering and heartbroken at losing my friend who killed himself, what if I just fucking killed myself too. Easy fucking way out, right? Fuck. But unlike him, I'm actually going to tell a shitload of people what's going through my head and NOT FUCKING DO IT AND RUIN MY…

Yay, Happy Birthday, Not the Real Randy!!!!

A close friend of mine just died, and it appears to be a suicide. I won't go around posting suicide hotline numbers everywhere until I know what happened.

If I weren't in the middle of wedding season, I would pitch in. Enjoy your vacation! <3

Nothing happened while I was gone. Nothing.