Yesterday I made this double chocolate pavlova topped with a whipped cream mascarpone and raspberries. 

That’s true. But they consider it differently when you’ve had an ectopic because they risk of a repeat is relatively high. So they wind up ordering it differently. But my issue was I’d never been seen before as a patient. Next time they’ll see me at 5 weeks to confirm location. 

I wish I could. Unfortunately we now live in a very small town and it’s literally the only practice our particular insurance will cover. But I WILL find another doctor in the practice. For this I just took the first doctor available. 

And I mean, it’s like 1/4 of pregnancies end that early. It’s routine and it’s very common. I get it, and I’d had two weeks to sort of move on from my disappointment and initial emotion. But for someone with many more or who can’t get as quickly pregnant? That shit needs some compassion. 

That’s the part I was most mad about! As a repeat ectopic I expressed to the woman that I should be seen earlier than 9 weeks and didn’t they want to do blood titers. Nope, can’t do that with a new patient or some shit. Fine, I’ll just wait and pay attention. But yesterday he expressed to me that next time I conceive…

I’m sorry for your losses, it’s such an incredibly awful feeling with such a loss of time.

I met with a doctor yesterday for a follow up on my 5 week miscarriage. We met in his office and he sat behind a desk and asked me “okay, so what makes you feel you had a miscarriage?” I understood why he needed to ask that. I know he’s one of those no bs, lacking in bedside manner kinds. I wasn’t particularly upset…

Oh no, I didn’t mean it wasn’t legit

Oh I’m not saying it’s not legit at all. I’m just saying that religious women who should find the procedure to be hypocritical find a way around it that makes it palatable. That was the “some shit”. Donation is a wonderful gift to those who can use it and I wasn’t trying to make it sound like it wasn’t real entirely,…

I can’t even remember where I heard it but it blew my mind too. Support burn out is real and so damaging. 

So I was curious once about the extra embyro issue and looked into it. There are some Christian companies that allow you to “donate” extra embryos for use by other couples or some shit. It sounded like a way to clear your conscience that would probably crumble under investigation.

Have you tried using Chrome? That solved the problem for me.

Crossing fingers for good news for you. Glad that part is at least behind you. 

Just wanted to say thanks to you and the others who sent kind words last week when I needed them. Thankfully it was just a miscarriage and not an ectopic. I’m feeling back to normal and after a doctors appointment next week hopefully we can do some tests and start over. 

Ugh this brings me back to my saddest of 20 something days when I’d hook up with the bartender of the bar I went to. He absolutely would always write cum instead of come. I 100% guarantee that it’s on purpose and that should tell you enough.

“Don’t light yourself on fire to keep others warm”. 

Wow. And yes they are very hard to find. I’m a 34 DD and aside from target it’s hard to find a single bra in stores. You can forget it if it’s something like a tjmaxx/Marshall’s.

Yea their whole deal is having difficult sizes/half sizes. But they just never have anything in those half sizes. 

Yea this was enough for me. I didn’t think the first looked scary at all. Thought Pennywise kinda looks goofy and meant to see it eventually. But that lady just scared the shit out of me in broad daylight. Nope nope nope.

Now I realize that there is wide variety of pain variables but fuck, mine were literally comparable to early labor. During the worst attacks I paced my living room in the exactly same way to just try to get through it. Gas pain also doesn’t hurt when you press on your ovaries. I hope she gave him an earful.