I just painstakingly typed out 5 book recommendations with descriptions one-handed while feeding/soothing baby and fucking kinja reloaded and I lost the whole comment and I don’t have the mental fortitude to redo it immediately tbh so I’ll try again later... 

It’s so hard to get back to (a new) normal after a loss. Volunteering at a cat shelter in Ollie’s honour sounds like a wonderful plan, it will hopefully give you some of what you’re missing with Ollie gone, and help out some cats in need at the same time.

Those are her space-dinosaur pyjamas!

I would do a lot right now for only having to feed her every 3 hours... We’re having a cranky night/day. Thank you so much for the affirmation and for the recommendation!

Oh, best of luck! Let me know if you want recommendations, especially for books. Are you in the USA? I think things are improving, generally, globally, for things like autonomy in birth. I hope you’ll be able to have the kind of labour and birth that you feel most comfortable with. Or at least that you can accept. I…

Her cheeks are incredible, she’s literally like a peach but softer???

Yeah I absolutely would have been completely fine if they’d said anything, even just “we don’t feel comfortable waiting any longer”. They literally said “baby is very happy”, they said I was doing really well, they said “this is an emergency cesarean but no, it’s not extremely urgent”, they said “of course you can…

I love your decoration and I’m so with you for cool crisp weather. I have a new Hallowe’en jumper I adore that I haven’t been able to wear for more than 20 minutes yet...

I’m so glad you’re starting to mentally detach and that you’re so well-prepared (unlike the company lol) for your last day! Set that timer and walk out of there on the fucking dot!!

Do you make your chicken tagine in a actual tagine? We bought one when we visited Morocco last year but haven’t really got to grips with cooking with it (in our defence, it has been the craziest fucking year, between the pregnancy and the eviction and Japan and all). But I really want to because that shit is delicious!…

That kind of surgery is always a big deal, but it sounds like she’s got excellent care, and heart surgery has come on incredibly far even in the last 5 - 10 years. It’s impossible not to worry, so just be gentle with yourself and focus on how wonderfully advanced modern medicine is.

I can’t get over the tiny fingers, honestly, I think they’re the cutest part of the whole adorable package!

Oh I’m so deep in pregnancy/birth/baby information I’ve completely lost my sense of what people generally know as a baseline...

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Thank you, I will follow up. I tried emailing my mental health midwife but unfortunately she transferred so I dunno if she’ll get back to me since its not really her job anymore... We’ll see!

Thank you Maya! That’s a good idea. How are you doing this week?

Thank you! She is so adorable she gets away with sleep-murder...

The shaking is totally normal; you get a rush of adrenaline on stage and then afterwards your body processes it out, which often involves shaking. It does feel weird to get a feeling that we associate with nervousness afterwards, but it’s not a lag or anything, it’s a “phew, job well done” from your body!

(Emily, it would be amazing if I could be ungreyed please I am very nice and this is where I do most of my internet socialising)

best???