This is like a Being Mary Jane episode come to life.

Great essay. One pet peeve though: stop shading Ciara. It seems cute and funny, but imagine thousands (millions?) of people calling your career a joke. That would be enough to induce a deep depression in most folks…

Notorious for not paying people (aside from the actors), and on the rare occasion that he does, it's under the table.

"I don't get your thing about being outside yourself." I think he's referring to being self-conscious: that half-second of hesitancy / judgment / doubt, whereas the free spirit just DOES what s/he feels like doing boldly.

LOL. It's Lou Shus Lie On.