I mean, I used to just have people to hang out with

more than I usually do

I've recently bonded a bit more with my friends lately

then I need to figure out who I love exactly

it sounds like a good idea.. but

idk

and let everything else arrange itself around that

I think I just want to be with people I love

it's just not knowing what it is that sucks

left to my own devices

which I sort of like, to be honest

I'm left on my own as far as figuring out what the hell to do next

by now they've given up

it was easy when I was being pushed by my parents

to light that fire under my ass

I need to find fuel

I'll either kill myself or my body will

I keep this up, and I'm not long for this world

no particular direction in life

at 23 years old