paultoes posted a reenactment of her entire story upthread. this is all too amazing.

this was incredible and thank you for sharing it with me us in this great season of sharing.

i really want to know the backstory but i’m too lazy to google.

thank you so much for sharing with me. I’m on my phone at work answering people and trying not to cry, bc you are bringing me so much comfort an I’m so rooting for you.

those are really good ideas and i thank you for them! and thank you for your kind words and support. this is why i come to Jez - i’ve been around for a while though i’m not the most frequent poster, but i always know people will root for me here. you are so kind.

i think i love you.

what. the.

thank you so much! unfortunately, i am in Chicago, where it is cold and grey and snowing. people keep telling me to exercise but i work as a server so i’m on my feet a lot...but they’re right, aren’t they?

i did see a doctor yesterday bc i was off of my meds since august, and this scariness was overwhelming so i knew i had to get back on. i pick up my Rx tomorrow morning, and it’s a 10 mg dose just to reintroduce it to my system. it’ll be a month before we go up to a therapeutic dose. i don’t pray, but i’ve never wished…

you are so very sweet. i do have this number saved in a Note on my phone, not because i am in that specific place, but i’m scared of a downward turn. i’m fighting as hard as i can.

my once very lucrative, satisfying serving job has ceased to be either, and i’ve been looking for a way out for months. nothing has bitten, even though i am so damn qualified and interview well. not even my former job is willing to hire me back right now (i am trying not to take it personally). it’s so disheartening.…

god, the “when you’re not looking.” i’m looking, damnit! what is wrong with looking?!? i have friends who’ve tried to tell me to just “oh be by yourself for a while, discover you!” while they have people to fuck and cuddle and love. i know me, i like me, and i work in the restaurant industry and those are the only…

(this entire past year was a year of men saying “you know, no thanks” to me. it fucking cuts to the bone.)

aw babe. i am so sorry. you know, i feel like that too, lately. it’s been really tough, watching people couple up as we are almost 30/past 30 and then there’s...me. my heart goes out to you, truly. i feel your hurt and confusion. i used to believe that a big, soft sincere heart like mine (when i am not in a…

a couple of months ago i posted something about the man i was dating (who has since dumped me...ugh) and how he was basically silent in bed. i’m vocal, i try not to be insincere about it, and i thoroughly enjoy when men are the same. the quiet thing made me question if he was enjoying himself or even being with me. i…

hi all,
three weeks ago, i posted about a breakup that had left me reeling. thank you for your support and hope. little did i know, that breakup would trigger a depression deeper and darker than i thought possible.

i suffer from a 1-2 punch of clinical depression/PTSD (shitty childhood), which i have been managing…

i just laughed so hard and loud in a public space and everybody is staring at me but i can’t stop.

dude, i bought a Herschel backpack yesterday, used my debit card, and when i opened my facebook app, it had ads for more Herschel shit. minutes later. fucking terrifying.

thank you so much. there is a lot of stuff i want to say about this, like the fact that i am so utterly confused as to WHY, but...the fact of the matter is that this hurts. i’ve hurt before, i’ve faced traumas and losses before, but this feels like the thing that might break me. it’s just been a rough year. *hugs*

i just got home from work, so this will probably be buried, but i need you Jezzies. i’ve been waiting for SNS since thursday.

right? i feel so damn informed and i am delighted by it.