Thanks honey. I'm on quite the rollercoaster at the moment! At least it's almost Christmas and I'll have a day to myself to eat ham and drink prosecco.

I am happy to report that I start trauma counselling on January 6. I am however very unhappy to report that I have contracted an std. 2019 needs to just hurry up and die already. 

I feel sick and so upset. I went to the supermarket earlier and was buying nice treats for myself with a gift card - no sensible groceries with a present!!! THE GIFT CARD DECLINED. I was so humiliated. I’m still embarrassed. I left everything just in the middle of the check out. I was hysterical.

How fun! What are you planning on getting? This is my second one and I'm already planning my third. I'm thinking a captain marvel care bear 😂

Hi everyone! A bit of happy for today, yay! I finally got the tattoo I’ve been wanting for simply forever - my beautiful kitty cats on my arm!! Getting a tattoo is great catharsis as well, I must admit... cried a few times but not because of pain, just because that’s who I am at the moment. But still!! I’m super happy…

My tree is up, and the Muppet Christmas Carol is on Disney plus. I’m safe and comfortable for the moment. Love to you all ❤❤❤

That’s a really good idea! I'm also going to treat myself today - it's Sunday, which means it's officially December, so I'm going to watch the Muppet Christmas Carol and put my tree up. I'm determined to be festive even if it kills me. 

Congratulations on the job!! Brilliant news.

It’s been a pretty not-good week for me. I met with the trauma counsellor and she believes I have developed ptsd. She thinks that this incident has brought to the surface a much-pushed down and ignored incident when I was 18, and that it’s all just erupted. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist on the 9th Dec and…

Thank you so much, you were great to talk to last weekend. It’s nice to have good people in my corner.

Hi all,

Thanks for asking, I'm doing ok. Doctor's visit for tests yesterday and I've got to go back in 3 months. What an albatross to carry. Still, could be worse. Just trying to focus on work and take things 5 seconds at a time. ❤

This is why I haven’t gone to the police after last week’s nightmare. 

Hey there, yeah I'm doing okay today thanks. Tired but getting there. Attempting to actually cook dinner tonight instead of living off two minute noodles and chocolate milk, so that's gotta be a plus right???

Thank you 'nana. I'm okay, I go up and down. Work is a blessing and a curse, but I've had this weekend off so it's been good. Read a little, cried a little, watched a lot of Netflix, and napped when I could. 

I did speak up when he was hurting me. Before all of this stsrted we talked about my experience (or lack thereof) and what I was hoping to happen. I had thought it would be a bit more relaxed and fun the first time we all got together. I’d spent a few weeks talking to Her, not Him, and she and I had been quite…

Thank you for your kind words and your wisdom. I do have an appointment next week at the local women’s health clinic for std checks. I went to the hospital later that afternoon, after the incident, to get checked for immediate physical damage; thankfully there was minimal lasting damage.

Thank you. I do appreciate your kindness. I'm in Australia and my doctor gave me a number for the sexual assault helpline, I should just bite the bullet and call. Thanks ❤

I use Joico usually, but received a sample of briogeo in my last sephora order and it's lovely. 

No, is ok. I'm just a wreck at the moment, I don't know if I'm coming or going. Truthfully I'm second and third and fourth and fifth guessing everything. I don't know what's real and what's distorted.