Oh Jesus fuck I didn't even think about that. Fuck fuck fuck fuck

What do you mean?

Thank God for SNS, I’ve been desperate to talk to people. I’ve had a very bad and hard week Jezzies, and I’m still hurting and confused. It’s pretty unpleasant so consider this warning. Also, this is long. Sorry. 

My doctor, Dog love him, increased my meds about 2 months ago. Therapy at the moment is out of the question because I don't have a spare $200. I know that's a shitty excuse but it is what it is. I'm on a waitlist to see someone that bulk bills, so fingers crossed I get in soon! It just feels... safer, I guess, to hide…

I feel like I'm a shell of myself at the moment. I don't care about anything, I am throwing everything I have into work so that I don't have to think or feel. I'm hiding away at home and sleep is not restful when it comes. I hate depression and frankly I hate myself and the person I am. 

Japan still has not acknowledged or apologised for their atrocious treatment of POWs in SE Asia, or the hundreds of lives lost during the Sandakan death marches. They are playing a foolish game by referencing history in such a cavalier manner.

Oh, Doute. Never change. 

I’m terminally single, but this story of how my Nanna and Pop got together is my absolute favourite.

Fuck those twats right off, Maya. I will always spend my last dollar on my babies. My heart breaks for you honey, Ollie was such a special little fellow. He'll never truly leave you but I know that is small comfort while it's still so raw. Just keep dismissing the fuckers and let yourself grieve. ❤

I’m fracking exhausted this week. I have today (Sunday) off, and I've decided that I'm not getting out of my nightie and I'm going to sit and binge Netflix and perhaps get uber eats. Screw being a responsible adult today! I'm running out of my 2019 quota of fucks.

Scuse me but you'd best pay the kitty tax!! We demand pictures!! I love ragdolls, they're so cute

Damn you, goddess......!!!!

It’s been an interesting couple of weeks since my last post. I flat out told my work that I simply cannot be responsible for the whole venue as a shift, I much prefer looking after my own area and my own team instead of trying to sort shit out in the kitchen or cafe or wherever. And they are on board! So at the moment…

My heart is breaking for you Maya... I shall give my two an extra squeeze for Ollie xoxoxo

Omg hard same. I’ve not taken care of myself at all! Chef saw me the other day and basically said “when was the last time you at a full meal that contained a vegetable?” and I had no answer for him. Next thing I know, there’s a goddamn steak and a mountain of veggies in front of me. 

Happy Weekend everyone, wherever you are in the world.

Oh true, I didn't even think of that. I get them so infrequently but when they hit they really freakin hit! Fingers crossed x

I’ve had an absolutely massive week with work - went to Sydney for an expo for 4 days, so I’m beyond ratshit exhausted. It’s Sunday morning here in Oz, and I was supposed to work today but my body has rebelled something fierce in the form of a most disgruntled tummy, and a headache sitting at the base of my skull.…

I had a gin based cocktail the other night that featured a thin slice of pickled daikon as the garnish... holy shit it was delicious

“He ran into my knife 10 times!”