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I might need to quit smoking cannabis. I could be getting asthma.

Sometimes I feel like such a horrible person. My brother might have cancer and all I can think is “I hope it kills my mother.” Gee whiz, that is dark. Read more

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In spite of one heck of a chest/head cold, I have felt almost normal (read: pain, nausea and overall discomfort-free). I’m about to walk into church. Blessings.

Cannabis has been doing wonders for managing my pain, nausea, sleeplessness and anxiety. Thank goodness for it. Read more

I’m enjoying a rare reprieve from my near-constant agony. I always thank God during these moments. Read more

So here’s the sitch: Read more

I went up 10 miligrams today at the clinic. I also smoked a lot of weed. Pain has been manageable for the most part but my sweats are off the charts. Mr. Cocoa butter addict is miserable and in near-constant pain but doesn’t want to raise his dose because he doesn’t want to be at the clinic forever. Read more

I had to break my sobriety because the pain of methadone withdrawal was too great. I now attempt to medicate it with marijauana. Normally I wouldn’t advocate veering from sobriety but I am in near-constant agony and need something to help alleviate it lest I lose my mind. Read more

I don’t know what I did to deserve near-constant withdrawal with an eight hour daily reprieve for the next week or more, but I assume it has something to do with being Hitler in a previous lifestyle.

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Today I made the mistake of posting “not blaming her obviously, but why was a thirteen-year-old at a sex party? :-(“ in the thread about Donald Trump’s alleged rape victim. I got a host of responses ranging from helpful (“she was a sex slave”) to dismissive of my intelligence (“you sweet summer child”) to openly… Read more

Oh, jeez. Read more

Ugh. My father-in-law is going off on Crooked Hillary and her E-mails. Just another typical bloviating male, afraid of and angry at an imposing, high-acheiving woman. Does he not get that if Trump wins he might lose his social security benefits? Read more

*Sigh*. Read more

I am done. Read more

Hey y’all! Read more

Hey y’all! How y’all doin’? Read more

I scored at the methadone clinic today! I found a pair of dark denim skinny jeans and a brand new oversized beige purse in the donations bin. Woo-hoo! Tomorrow I’m gonna look for the cute shirt I found the other day but didn’t have a purse to transport Read more

Man oh man, one of the dosing nurses at the clinic was NOT happy with me today. Read more