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♪ Through so let me spell it out ♪

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♪ A, B, C, D, E, F you ♪

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♪ And your mom and your
sister and your job ♪

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♪ And your broke ass car
and that shit you call art ♪

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♪ Fuck you ♪

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- I feel like I can't feel
everything all at once.

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Like I think it's kind of a process

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of being able to process
everything that's kind of happened

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'cause it's everything
that I've ever wanted

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and so it really,

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it almost messes with
my like sense of reality

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and it kind of can make me,

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if I'm being completely honest,
like dissociate at times

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because I'm like, wow, like

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so many incredible things are happening.

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Everything that I've
ever wanted is happening.

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Like, oh my God

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and so like when it comes to ABC like

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it's something I've
definitely been able to come

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more accustomed to and kind of

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really see how it's changed my life.

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(crowd cheering)

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This is such a dream come
true, thank you so much.

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I can't believe this is happening.

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♪ Fuck you and your mom and
your sister and you job ♪

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With Taylor that was such a warm

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and happy surprise for me in my life.

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Obviously I would never expect to get

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the incredible opportunity
to open up for Taylor Swift

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and going on tour with the
incredible artists that are on

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the Eras tour.

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And it's such an amazing
opportunity and especially,

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I was in a point in my life
where I kind of was like

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what am I gonna do next year?

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Like, I kind of don't
know, like, I don't know

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but I was trying to kind of figure it out

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and Taylor just walked into
my life and just was like,

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hey, here's what you're
gonna be doing next year.

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♪ Try your best you can't phase me ♪

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♪ Live my life like everybody hates me ♪

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♪ Everybody hates me ♪

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I wrote the song about
February of last year

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and it was kind of right as
ABC was peaking on the radio

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and I kind of started
hearing the sentiment

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and it was fair, but I
kind of started hearing

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the sentiment of like, God, I
just heard this song so much,

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I hate it.

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Like, oh and I felt that
way too, where it's like,

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wow, I've heard this song like so much.

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And I remember even when we
first wrote it, I was like

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I as little kid who knew nothing was like

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I want this song to
like get played so much

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that people hate it and
they're annoyed by it.

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Like that is almost like
a goal as a songwriter.

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You're like, I want people
to be annoyed by this song.

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I want them to hear it so much.

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But then if it happens

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it leaves you with this
very like, specific feeling.

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Even if somebody was
like, oh I love this song

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till I heard it too much

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and now it's just overplayed
and it's annoying.

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And with that, like with
attention comes hate

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and I was like fixating on it.

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I feel like a lot of
people that go into music

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and they're, you know,
you're very aware of the fact

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that people are gonna openly dislike you,

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but it was, you know
when it actually happens,

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it just feels different.

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And then especially when people
are saying things about you

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that just simply aren't true

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and you could say whatever you would want

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to possibly correct them and
they still wouldn't believe you

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in any type of like sense of the truth

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or your narrative that
you would want to push.

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Like I was going through all
of these like mental spirals

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and then I kind of came to this point

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and I still always have
to go back to this because

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I leave this point a lot,

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but I always try and go back to like,

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it doesn't matter.

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The only thing that
matters is what you want.

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That's it.

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(gentle music)